I am indeed pleased to say, I am in one of my favorite places on the face of the earth… abode de California. Home sweet home.
We really do go from glory to glory… I left beautiful Amsterdam with dreams and hopes in my heart for a city and came home to family and friends embracing me with good tidings.
What is this life I get to live?
I am truly blessed and loved by my heavenly Father. I was only meant to be home for one night, but God made a way for me to stay and rest with family that love me so well. There really aren’t enough words, even in the english language, to describe how thankful I am to Him. Sometimes I find myself wondering, “Can He really be this loving?” He knows me so well. And yet, time and time again He proves Himself true to be. I love the Lord.
Well Amsterdam was great success! And I do not measure success by wealth or deed but by the friendships made and faith increased for yet another city; another nation for His glory. What I mean by this is, Amsterdam is ripe for harvest. The light has shone in the darkness and the light will not be hidden. Its only a matter of time for a wave of revival to hit the UK once again. I have been greatly encouraged by what I have seen and heard in my time there and I know God is behind it all. Women from the red light district coming out of slavery, drunkards getting healed of physical pain, the church becoming a real family again. It’s happening.
And now as I sit at home, drinking tea and admiring the lights on the Christmas tree, I can’t help but feel the Joy and Hope of the Lord. In this season of hope, joy, peace, and rest, may you find rest in knowing that God, He is God. And He is changing the world.
Words can’t express the honor that it is to serve and to run with such an incredible group of God-loving, God-fearing people who long to see God get the Glory in the nations of the earth. This is my family.
Well its week three into the Awakened leadership track… God has already done a deep work in our hearts as a track since day one. There has been a strong since of unity and family over this quarter. Even families are getting breakthrough as we are walking by faith that God will heal and restore those closest to us. The testimonies have been amazing. People are getting saved. This is week three.
I don’t know what it is, but there is something about this quarter (next three months) that raises the bar for any other season of my life. I can honestly say, I have never wanted more of God in my life and His desires for me. I have laid down the dreams of my heart for a greater vision, to make Him Lord of my life in every area. That I would trust Him fully and allow Him to teach me His ways, and not depend on my own. There is deep hunger this quarter for intimacy. That we would get alone with God and let Love in completely. Without walls. My prayer this week has been, Lord expand my borders, I want nothing less than more of You. And I can feel Him breaking into my heart, for my family, for finances, dreams and visions, for the knowledge of Christ, and for my identity in Him. I feel His peace, I feel His pleasure over me. And I am overwhelmed in thankfulness that He has brought me back to a community that sharpens my faith, that loves with deep love that can only come from the Fathers heart, that doesn’t get offended, that pursues friendship with the Lord and with others, that wants to serve the dreams of others…
Every week we have practical ways of serving the campus, worship, prayer, teachings, and all of it done together in community. I have the blessing of working on the University of the Nations natural farm 3 mornings a week. We get to do small projects that help in big ways and it is so much fun! We have teachings from incredible speakers every wednesday morning and thursday nights the whole campus gathers and we have a time of worship and teaching. Monday through friday we have prayer sets from 1-3pm where we worship together and intercede nations, families, ourselves, other ministries, bases, or whatever is on the Lords heart. I think its safe to say that this base is built around worship and prayer centered around the presence of God. This is community like I have never experienced.
The more I get to know people, families, kids that live on this base the more I am confident that this is what I was made for. To live in a presence centered community devoted entirely to worship and prayer for the nations of the earth. Since the day I have arrived to Kona, I have felt this is a place to call home. My heart comes alive more here than any other place on earth.
All that to say, I would love for you all reading this to partner with me in prayer for what God has specifically for me here in Kona. I feel lead to commit myself to serving for longer term than what I first thought before I got here and so I really want to hear the Lord and be obedient to what he is saying. There are other opportunities as well that He has brought up to me so if you feel lead please pray that I would follow the movements of His heart in complete faith and obedience.
I am so full of expectation and hope for this next move. For those who don’t know, I am moving back to Kona in a few weeks to begin Leadership track with YWAM which is a three month staff training where we really grow as a community deeper into the word and intimacy with the Father. After that, starting January, I will be joining a school called Furnace to Fields that trains people that desire to see houses of prayer built in nations! We will train for two months; first month will be in Kona, the second month we will be in Pasadena, CA then in March we will be heading to South Africa to put to action our training. We will raise up a house of prayer where God will get all praise and glory night and day and where nations will be lifted up before the throne of God. Simply because He is Worthy!
"My name will be great among the nations, from where the sun rises to where it sets. In every place incense and pure offerings will be brought to me, because my name will be great among the nations," says the LORD Almighty." Malachi 1:11
This is what God is doing in the nations of the earth to prepare for His return to claim His bride! HOW EXCITING IS THAT?! And we get to take part in it all! Im beginning to feel the new hope that I believe is spreading across the earth, the homecoming of our beloved Jesus. And He has chosen us for such a time as this, to prepare the way.
How could I not be filled with this overwhelming joy?? He is cominggggg! Please join with me in prayer for the raising up of Houses of Prayer in the nations! That every tongue and tribe would sing to Jesus and profess him King of all! Its happening already, we are saying yes to a partnership with heaven. We say yes to the call God for all that You want to do in the nations. Lead us to pray, lead us to go wherever and do whatever it takes to see the kingdom of heaven here on earth. WE LOVE YOU JESUS!
I have been meaning to write a sort of final blog summing up my trip and experiences from the last 6 months I have been on this incredible journey with God. YWAM has absolutely changed my life and I feel I am walking in who God has called me to be. I feel more confident than ever that I was created for worship, prayer, a life of freedom and the most intense radical love that comes from God alone. He has loved His way into my heart for good and eternity and I am completely overwhelmed by His heart for the lost, for the unsaved, and for the saved alike. His heart longs that His bride would return to Him and that Jesus would get to receive the full reward of His suffering. That the people He gave breathe would breathe praises to Him who sits on the throne.
I have seen so much of Gods goodness, miraculous healing, salvations, kindness, gentleness, patience, and in such a short time. I have seen crowds gathered desparate to get a touch from God. I have seen hunger and thirst for God. And I have seen the love of the Father revealed for the first time to a despairing son or daughter. He is bringing home every lost sheep for the return of His Son. For that glorious wedding day! And WE get to be apart of it. We get to say YES to a life we were always meant to live, fully surrendered. What an honor, this birthright of joy that we get to receive!!
The people I have met in Nepal will never leave my heart. It was the most glorious time I have yet on the mission field, and since I go from glory to glory I cant WAIT to see whats next.
I want to tell you a little about what God is stirring up in my heart. HOUSES OF PRAYER IN THE NATIONS. He longs for communities centered around worship and prayer DAY AND NIGHT because He is WORTHY. What would this kind of community do to a nation? We can see in so many of the stories in the bible that it only took a few to start a movement of God. That is what He has done for every big move of God that has happened so far and now the few will become an army of surrendered hearts! He plans on launching this army forth into the nations, to the hardest and darkest to build COMMUNITIES that will bring revival to a nation! God has made it clear to me that He wants me to get trained up for this time in a new school called Furnace to Fields. The idea is to train on how to build and sustain a house of prayer of 24/7 worship and prayer, contending, and adoration to Jesus! I will get to spend 6 months in training and 6+ months on the field actually doing it.
The more I say YES to Jesus, the greater the next adventure. Glory to glory!! Praise the LORD! I am completely in awe and excitement for where He is taking me next. I would love to tell you more about it. PLEASE FEEL FREE to email me ANYTIME ALL THE TIME haha. I love you friends. firstname.lastname@example.org
Jesus your the sign, Jesus your the wonder. Your the miracle there is no other!
Im going to Nepal!! AHHH I am so stinking excited for the end of March when we all get to jump onto planes and head for the nations of the earth to spread JOY TRUTH AND THE LOVE OF GOD! God is so incredibly FUN and I can’t wait for all He is going to do, He has SO much in store. Thousands will come to Jesus, souls saved, people healed, revivalists trained and being sent out! They’re coming home LORD!!!
Honestly, since I have started this DTS its all been a blur of intensity and complete JOY and FREEDOM. We have had incredible times of worship and prayer together AMAZING speakers including thee great leader and one of many fathers, Brian Brennt, of this culture of revival shift in America! When Brian came this week he came with explosions of crazy sentences that all of our ears were itching to hear! “80 millions souls! Revival is reality! Revival is for right now! WE ARE ALL PREACHERS AND BRINGERS OF THE GOOD NEWS! Its really THAT simple!” Ahhhh the gospel is so sweet, God is so incredible to have chosen us to be apart of the army that will take back what was already HIS and RESTORE a generation back to the heart of the Father. I can’t wait to share all that God has been moving in my heart but I know that the biggest culture shift that has taken place in my heart is the GIFT of a SURRENDERED HEART!
You see, I thought I had repented of my sins, really laid it down and given it to Jesus (Oh God thank you for GRACE) but the TRUTH and REALITY of the way I was living was in a room full of garbage that I didn’t know I had to get rid of. It was all in my heart and I never fully understood the JOY of giving it all up to HIM.
I thought repentance was the serious faced christian who always had their head down in shame and what looked like a heavy load of stuff put on their shoulders. But I never wanted to be that christian, I always thought “surely God you want me to be happy!” So I never truly dealt with my issues and carried on with all the garbage in my heart. Well since I have been here, I have been totally revived and set free in my mind and heart from many hindrances. I cant believe the freedom I have found in the JOY OF A SURRENDERED HEART. I can laugh and sing as I give up my old self and allow GOD to renew my mind and heart each day. I understand finally that I GET to give it all up to Jesus and he takes it all gladly and without disappointment. GOD IS NOT DISAPPOINTED! I always believed I was a disappointment to Him as part of my testimony but its just NOT TRUE. “The enemies a lia!” (the oh so wise Andy Byrrd)….
Ahhh its so sweet to surrender my heart daily to Jesus and be able to live in confidence and complete freedom from any part of my heart that would resist me from growing in Him. I LOVE THE LORD! This family has been so encouraging to me, filling my life with encouragement and love, I am so blown away but the authenticity in their hearts. I cant believe that I get to run with this group of radical lovers of God. This is what I was born for, this is why I am here, I know I am purposed in Christ.
There is so much more to tell but I will leave you for now with this… God is not disappointed, he is not embarrassed, he is not ashamed, he does not regret that He made you, because HE CREATED YOU PERFECTLY, He literally hand designed you and there will never ever ever be another YOU in this world. So what do you have that all the world is waiting to gain? What can you give to the world that God HAS already placed inside you? He longs for you to be confidant in His love for you and how He originally designed you. You are loved and highly favored!!
It’s been awhile tumblrs, I guess I didn’t realize how much I truly enjoy blogging until I read some of my past posts this morning. I felt so much excitement as I remembered some of the amazing things God has done has continued doing, in my life. Point is: I love sharing with you!
Reason for the title: God is taking me through an incredible time with him lately. I have been able to enter into my garden with the Lord asking more questions and talking a lot with my father about the big and little things of life. (And for those curious about what I mean by “my garden” I encourage you to ask the Lord. He is more than willing to show you.) It has been incredible. I feel like he is taking me into the “promise land” in a way and showing me around. Showing me what he has created and every purpose for it, because there is always a purpose behind what God is doing! He doesn’t just do it for himself he does it for all and for His glory, amen! I am journeying with him discovering more and more of His heart and its changing everything. How could it not?
Lately I have been dreaming more the same dream I have had for years since I fell in love with the Ethiopian people. My heart races more and more as I think about the people there, the need, and the restoration that is coming! I know God is going to bless my hearts dream, because I have been given a promise.
Whatever promise the lord has given you, hold onto it with all that you are. You WILL see its fruition. God is faithful. For those who don’t have a promise from the Lord, ASK He longs to show himself faithful so that we may trust even more in Him.
God WANTS you to know him much more closer than you can think, much more than I could imagine or begin to express. Just ASK him just ask and seek and ask some more, He will come to you. He is right where you are.
I love that this is what He is trying to tell me right now. “Just thank Me” he says…
Why do I think its too simple because it is simple but I never got the full meaning behind how clearly important a thank you is.
He is constantly telling us to thank and praise Him in the Word and for good reason. Its almost as if it was too obvious when I was reading the words in scripture so I would skim through them trying to get to the juicy part of a verse or passage.
Now I get it.
In Bill Johnsons book he says with thanksgiving and praise comes rejoicing, “Rejoicing requires you to acknowledge that His goodness and faithfulness are more real than our present difficulty. It especially requires you to agree that your life is not really about you.”
Naturally giving thanks to our God, who deserves it most, in EVERY moment of our lives would in fact cause us to rejoice, because our life isnt really about us its all about Him.
And isnt that so much better?…
Giving thanks and praise are commands! We are commanded to rejoice in our heavenly Father because of everything He has done and is doing.
When we are living a life of thanks and praise our whole being is alive to His presence, and thats where He wants us.
How amazing is it that He just wants our lives to be JOY-filled?! He wants us to live in complete unity with Him so that we can know Him..
So in times of difficulty, worry, and suffering, give Him the praise He is worthy of because its through those times that we get the opportunity to show our God sacrificial love. He wants to know if you are truly for Him.
Isaiah 43: 2,3 “When you’re in over your head, I’ll be there with you. When you’re in rough waters, you will not go down. When you’re between a rock and a hard place, it won’t be a dead end - Because I am God, your personal God, The Holy of Israel, your Savior. I paid a HUGE price for you.” (Message Bible)
Remind yourself, force your memory to know who God truly is and what He has done for you, in times of struggle. Yesterday I felt just blah, I kept trying to talk to God about it, but nothing came out right. Even in the midst of feeling tired, unwanted, undeserving, etc, I sang ‘God I look to you’ because he is where my strength comes from. Days like yesterday are going to happen but I am reminding myself today who God is and what he’s done for me. And that JOY comes in the morning. Thank you Lord! I am excited for this day.
“”Our greatest fear should not be of failure but of succeeding at things in life that don’t really matter… God’s definition of what matters is pretty straightforward. He measures our lives by how we love.””—
By Francis Chan
I believe it was Heidi Baker who said at a conference last week, or/and my pastors wife a few weeks ago, the Lord will ask us this in the end… “how well did you love? Did you get it? Did you really understand what is meant by loving, in your time spent on earth?”
I think im starting too. But Im only scratching the surface. It can be as big or small as giving someone a smile when you can see they are having a hard day, or as big as giving up your life for the sake of God’s kingdom. I am just understanding what love looks like and I am trying, o merciful God help me, help me understand what sacrifice is. Whether it be little acts of obedience or larger. Why do we care about things that don’t matter when love is all we have that is going to matter for eternity?
Jesus gave up everything for love. We will never be able to fully repay him for what he did for us, but we can at least use the little we have and the love he gave us to spread to others, to give back to him.
Yesterday I went to a conference at Harvest Rock Church where my HERO was speaking, Heidi Baker along with an amazing man of God Randy Clark. To make a long story short I died a little and it was exactly what I needed. When I heard Heidi was speaking I was hungry. I want so badly what she has, a relationship with God that is unlike any other. When she talks with him she calls him Daddy God, I love it! Her only care is MORE OF HIM and thats what I want. I am tired of caring about things that don’t matter. I just want God. I want to have an intimate realtionship where I can tell him everything and only be concerned, angry or fearful for only seconds before I tell my daddy whats wrong and he makes it all better.
The whole conference my heart literally hurt. I was being convicted on everything that was stopping me from being loved by my father and loving him back. The problem is I know in my head that I love him, that he is good, that he performs signs and miracles, that he can do all things. But its my heart that lacks emotion and knowledge of the truth of his character. Why? I don’t spend enough time getting to know him like I should. Thats the raw truth right there. I settle for a touch from God, a word and then “im good” how in the world do I expect God to use me like that? I want to be before him all the time, my face in the ground, giving him all of me, and not leaving until I know what he wants me to do. I tried it this morning. Lets just say, it was definitely worth it. He is worth wasting time with.
The biggest point: he is so much bigger than I have EVER given him credit for. Sometimes I see or talk to Jesus like hes a Genie, “okay God this is what I want” and he shows up three times and im satisfied. Well no more. I wil not settle for anything less than more of him. I want it all. I want all he has for me and more. I want his heartbeat for the lost, poor, hungry, and right now, for those suffering in Ethiopia. All I can do is say YES and go all-out for him and his purposes. Your will not mine.
One more thing. He longs to play with us. I just want to play with my daddy, laugh together, be filled with his overwhelming joy, jump into his arms. UGH! I know im being mushy but I don’t care, he loves me too much not to be. And he loves you to much not to know. Be blessed today and let him bless you!
“One way to express this is to say that in order to be a living reminder of the Lord, we must walk in his presence as Abraham did. To walk in the presence of the Lord means to move forward in life in such a way that all our desires, thoughts, and actions are constantly guided by him. When we walk in the Lords presence, everything we see, hear, touch, or taste reminds us of him. This is what is meant by a prayerful life. It is not a life in which we say many prayers, but a life in which nothing, absolutely nothing, is done, said, or understood independently of him who is the origin and purpose of our existence.”—Henri J.M. Nouwen
I had this thought this morning as I was looking through pictures from the last few years, of women and children on the streets of Addis, the dying and the hungry. And while I am sitting here drinking my regular morning cup of coffee, children are dying from hunger, from AIDS and all kinds of diseases.
Sometimes, I find myself walking through days as if I were the only one on the planet. Not thinking about the hurting I have seen, and the struggles I have heard from the very mouths of those I love. How could I forget? How do we get caught up in the repetition and mundane of the everyday? I always find myself looking through pictures and videos and I think thats the Lord reminding me that I am not the only one here. It can’t be about me anymore, now that I have Christ. And just because I am not there does not mean I stop doing the work of the kingdom. I rejoice now, I praise him now, I serve him with all that I am in this moment.